solid as a rock?

deep breath! don't forget to exhale! my mantra lately-i've been holding my breath i guess lately. i'm attempting to move forward and get out of my funk. it's hard when the universe keeps throwing you curve balls though. just when things start looking up-bam! the rug 's been pulled out from under me again. from my past experence these two things i know: things can always get worse and "this too shall pass." so i'm rather forcing myself to jump back into life.

as i write this all my friends are at the celtic festival-either spinning or dancing. i was suppose to go and spin but chose to stay home and focus on stuff here. my heart just wasn't into it this year. did'nt feel like being around the masses. being social for me right now would have to be quite an act and i'm not up to it. so instead, i picked up my knitting needles and allowed myself to start a "new" and quik project-i need some instance gradification! so i started a pair of fingerless mittens for myself to match a feather and fan scarf i made last year. from noro kochoran-the groovy stuff with angora bunny in it-fluffy!! i got one done today: still need to weave in my ends.

yes, it sure felt good to knit again. liam has been busy making squash cars and having alot of fun letting them fly down the hill-the chickens even chase the cars-trying to get it on video but ran out of batteries-damn!

things have not been all bad around here-last weekend was a very big highlight in the midst all this darkness. hubby and i got to go away-overnight-yes i said overnight-for the first time in 9 and1/2 years since liam was born. it was a much needed trip for hubby and i.(our 11th anniversary!) we got a 'private" room at the sacramento hostel. very cool hostel-in an old gold rush mansion!

the bedsprings are very squeaky though!-heheeeeee! that's our room with the curtain pulled aside!

we went to the B street theatre to see a play called "the book of liz" written by amy and david sedaris. we love david and(sister) amy but we were a bit disappointed with the play-we expected to have more gut wrenching gafaws! as is usually the case with these wonderful writers. we actually got to go out for another dinner at 11:effin 30-(yes-the p.m.)yeeha! now that's something we haven't done in ages. oh-i forgot to mention we started off our day at the midtown fair-very fun neighborhood in sacramento-we had yummy beers at the rubicon brewery and the best fish tacos-ever!!!!!!!! delightful characters everywhere. the next morning we headed to the crocker art museum for the grandma moses exhibit-i love grandma moses -she rocks!

here's a close up: i love folk art!

i'm really bummed that my kids are not into art museums as i love them-it was nice not to be rushed out! we found a new used furniture store that was totally awesome but dispite their sign-not cheap! i guess they have to pay for these awesome murals adorning their store! check these babies out!

gotta love them-they are hot! well, we ended our weekend with a trip to IKEA-ugh! we were very overwelmed and bought nothing! but now we know what they got and can be more prepared next time. we also met up with a guy to buy my new lap top that i'm typing on this very minute-from the awesome craig's list! craig's list is superb-recycling at it's best.- my new lap top-thanks honey! we got hubby a leather recliner for 20$ and bunches of other stuff over the year.

thanks for the wonderful weekend honey- i love you!

another cool thing is yesterday we got our first new egg from one of our new flock:see the difference in size!

i had a very scarey thing happen to my flock the other day. i was on the phone and i heard a chicken scream. have you ever heard a chicken scream? it's aweful. i ran out to see a huge red tailed hawk attacking one of them-i ran out yelling-the hawk let go as all the other hens went running in to the woods fast as lightening! when the hawk flew off-it's wing span was about the size of liam-4 foot 21!!!!!!!! the hens were totally freaked-i had to crawl on hands and knees to retrieve kamakaze! i put her in the hen house and she would not come out ! whew-close call. but now the hawk knows they are here. this is kama on our outside bed! she loves to hang out with liam there.

anyway-this post is getting way too long so i'll end it here but first i want to give a big heart felt thanks to all who have given me support and kind words-it really means alot to me!!!!!!